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Friday, August 20, 2010

Killing Time

In a few days, I'll be whisked off for surgery to have Doogie Howser slit open my throat and yank out a big, nasty, blobby, bulging cyst---the size of a lumpy cucumber...that's been wreaking havoc as it slowly strangles my thyroid, vocal chords, tongue and assorted other neck organs which I presume to be kinda vital for a pleasant quality of life.

I had not planned to write about the operation---which for the curious is called a Sistrunk Procedure to remove a thyroglossal duct cyst---because I was scared to death. My surgeon matter-of-factly told me I may lose the use of my vocal chords...permanently. Then he calmly rattled off a few other minor complications that could happen: like finding a malignancy, blood clots, stroke, seizures, choking, thyroid troubles, tongue impairment and for good measure...that pesky old nemesis they call...flat line. 

After much hand-wringing, imagining the worst for months on end and watching ghastly YouTube videos of the surgical procedure over and over and over, I finally decided to stop obsessing about it. It was time to dump my negativity and channel positive resources. You might think I'd invoke something uplifting and inspirational like: Let go and let God or Put it in God's hands. Now don't get me wrong. I do strongly attest to the power of prayer. And believe me, I've weaseled myself onto the prayer lists of a vast multitude of friends and family. So I've got all that good spiritual stuff going for me already.

But when it comes to really taking my mind off worrisome things, the tried and true solution for me is to head to the inner depths of our household closets and...reorganize. The thing is...I'm already a notorious neatnik. I've been that way my entire life. I love order and orderliness. To me it makes perfect sense to keep things well organized because knowing where everything is and being able to find things in a flash---totally simplifies your entire life AND it gives me so much more freedom. Personal time freedom...to do so many more things. Not only that but putting things in order is relaxing therapy for me. Call me crazy. It is what it is.

As you can well imagine...if you've ever known a super organizational freak...our clothes closets were already organized more brilliantly than Martha Steward on steroids. They were already decluttered, alphabetized, color-coded, super sorted, lined with neat bins and boxes for socks, scarves and lingerie and sported custom shelving to hold shipshape stacks of finely folded shirts and shorts and jeans. I'm sure this sounds quite pathetic and utterly insane to most normal folks. But it works beautifully for us.

So this time, instead of reorganizing again...I decided to purge. I went through all our closets and pulled out stuff that we hadn't used in a year or so. Clothes, outdated computer stuff, cooking utensils that I never use any more, newer books I've already read and didn't like, some tools, several knick knacks, garden implements, a few furniture items. It took me several days to accomplish all this but eventually I ended up with a rather substantial and needless to say tidy pile of household goods. Most of the items were fairly new but seldom or never used. We gave it all away to the Goodwill and our church.

Now my sweet husband and I have even less stuff but more space in the house and more time to do things together. In the process, I stopped dwelling about my upcoming surgery. Only thing is...I have four more days before I go under the knife. Still gotta find things to keep myself occupied otherwise those mesmerizing YouTube surgery videos will be luring me back. Maybe I should reorganize the silverware drawers or restack the toilet paper shelf or rebuild the storage racks in the garage, or......... Sphere: Related Content

17 comments:

ReformingGeek said...

Wow! I wish you the best.

As for the reorganizing and purging, I've been doing a lot of that lately, too. I, too, prefer order and knowing where things are when you need them!

KeLLy aNN said...

Best of Luck. Look forward to hearing from you after...

Steadfast Ahoy! said...

Before my daughter could talk (18 m0nths or so), I found a lump in her throat while I was bouncing her on my lap. It was a thyroglossal cyst. All our worst fears vanished when she came home right as rain after the surgery. Of course, we caught it when it was about the size of a walnut. Doctors tell you all the possible horribles just to cover themselves in case...you know...don't sue me! I am sure you will have a sore throat and maybe be a little hoarse post-op, but you will be happy with feeling so much better once that obstruction is removed. I will pray for you too. Be brave and keep on sorting, organizing and purging. If you run out of closets and cupboards to clean out, come visit me. I could use your special talents here for sure.
Rosemary

Kathy said...

I wish you the best on your surgery. In fact I will add you to my prayer list. God Bless!!

Respectfully Yours said...

All the best. you are in my prayers.

Lo said...

I envy your organizational gene......I am just the opposite and suffer for my sins every day with the groan,"I know it is here somewhere, I just don't know where."

But I am writing to encourage you to be of good cheer......I am 83 and just had to have my throat cut by a Jack the Ripper....mine was a clogged carotid artery that needed to be cleared.....I was home in 2 days and have been coming along nicely. Hope you will too.
Good luck, darlin'

Leanne said...

I'll be thinking of you, and keeping you in my prayers. Positive thoughts. Positive thoughts. Positive thoughts.

Cheeseboy said...

Oh, I do wish you the best of luck with your surgery. I hope it works and gets rid of all your troubles.

Blissed-Out Grandma said...

Glad you shared this and didn't keep it to yourself. It's nerve-wracking getting ready for surgery. But you have found a very creative way to channel your energies! Maybe you could organize someone else's house for them! If you lived nearby, I'd volunteer mine! Take care, and let us know how you're doing.

Meathead said...

Good luck! I'm glad you shared this on your blog. Now us strangers can send good vibes/positive thought/prayers your way too!

Can you send some organization genes over this way? I seem to have lost mine among all the clutter here :)

Carolyn Elizabeth Blake said...

We of course pray and wish for your perfect outcome. May I suggest cooking meals for many days and then putting them in the freezer? Keeps you busy organizing, and will allow hubby to just thaw and heat for the days you are recuperating. Keep us posted!
Carolyn

J.P. Travis said...

Consider yourself "weaseled" on to one more prayer list.

Sherry Blue Sky said...

I do hope all goes well for you, with only positive results. I wish I could say the same for my closets - actually I have ONE closet, am living in a tiny space with Too Much Stuff and badly need to purge big-time.........I will think of your closets when trying to Motivate Self:) Allthe best during surgery and after.....

covnitkepr1 said...

Isn't it wonderful the peace that comes when we are truely able to "let go and let God."
I was looking over all your photos and enjoying God's creation through the lens of your camera. You capture His creation so well.
I’ve enjoyed looking over your blog. I came across it through another blog I follow. I am now a follower of yours as well. Feel free to look over my blog and perhaps become a follower of it if you wish.

Jude said...

OK, best wishes and prayers for a very successful outcome. (If you need to do some extra re-organizing in the meantime, I could use some help)

Jude said...

OK, best wishes and prayers for a very successful outcome. (If you need to do some extra re-organizing in the meantime, I could use some help)

Susan said...

My daughter had a thyroglossal cyst removed when she was about 2...it was the size of a jumbo bubble gum ball at the time...and as traumatic as it was, recovery was quick and thorough. Sending positive thoughts your way!

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